DMX has been mourned by many since his death last month, however none have grieved the loss greater than his household.
The rapper’s ex-wife Tashera Simmons opens up about his loss of life, legacy and closing interview on the most recent episode of the PEOPLE Every Day podcast with host Janine Rubenstein.
“I’m torn. Our kids are struggling and attempting to get to over that ‘not sufficient time with their dad’ factor; it is a robust time,” she says. “On the identical time … I used to assume that this was insensitive to say, however I do imagine he’s in a greater place, simply due to the phrases he left me with. He was by no means afraid of passing on. And I was aggravated with that, however now I perceive.”
DMX (born Earl Simmons) died April 9 at at White Plains Hospital in New York, one week after suffering a heart attack. He was 50. The three-time Grammy Award nominee’s final interview is airing in two elements on TV One’s Uncensored, the primary of which aired Sunday.
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“I did not know that it was filmed,” Tashera, 50, says. “After they referred to as me, I did not notice that this was the final interview that he’d executed. And the issues that he talked about in it have been so highly effective to them, tales that he spoke about of myself and him that I did not even bear in mind, actually, till… They actually needed to replay it.”
Tashera and DMX have been married from 1999 to 2014, they usually shared sons Xavier, 28, Tacoma, 21, Sean, 18, and daughter Reward, 16. The couple met at 11 years previous, when she witnessed him steal a girl’s purse with the assistance of his canine. “Good woman liked dangerous boy,” she says.
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“The way in which they jogged previous me and caught my imaginative and prescient, our eyes … and I used to be identical to, ‘My hero,'” Tashera recounts. “I am looking for the phrases to clarify what I am attempting to say. Nevertheless it simply felt proper in a loopy second. It felt proper.”